Failed Homebirth

I love the poetry making wild folk - making fairy houses and being wacky and weird but me, to feel real, I need to express this strange being that i am looking out from. We are all this connected goop hiding behind masks. The realness of masks is so intense.
I have a friend called Stephanie Campbell and she has so many masks and she is a shaman of masks. Her house is full of devotional hard ware and soft ware! It is all alive with beings that nestle in its branches. Its like Stephanie lives in this tree thing.
I labored with the birth of my daughter, Teebird, for 24 hours there before we went to the hospital and actually… maybe I feel like I am actually too uptight in a way, too conditioned to cut loose and have a home birth, not relaxed enough, not “evolved”enough! So I couldn’t get into natural labor and had to be induced in the hospital but now I see that I I was too uptight and now I feel like I should be in the hospital if I go for #2…? Because, I wasnt really at Home, I was at Stephanie's house on new years eve of last year.
Teeter Teebird Twyla Anna Celestial Zell was born on Jan 1 - new years baby!! healthy at the hospital..a magical child with angelic angel fur all over her 7 pound body -oooh what a treasure!!
But we could not be at home because too far from the hospital and so we went to stephs...