its just better this way

there is a cacophony coming out of my itunes, reflecting the deep ass lung disease i have developed. I knew my lungs were weak, but i have been unable to give up smoking. until now. okay. i will not smoke today. despite how happy it makes me. despite the fact that it is my herbal prozac. i need to get my lungs back in shape so i can smoke as much as i want and still live to be a grandmother. did i mention that this habit is a one-ee a day? not a lot. just enough. enough to alter my mood and enough to turn a regular cold into certifiable lung disease. no i will not use the c word.
so its a boring day with no high-light.